Yesterday, while working on our lessons, I had a little wake up call to take better care of myself. My left arm went numb & began tingling.
After a quick online search, it doesn't necessarily mean that "the big one" is in my near future, but it made me realize that I need to stop putting myself on the back burner.
For several years, I just didn't care about myself as I struggled with undiagnosed depression. The roller coaster ride, with its dark moods, regrettably had a few more passengers than just me.
It feels like I'm finally coming out of it. Every minute of the day doesn't seem overwhelming. I've finally pulled my head out of the sand. Inhaling fresh air, seeing the bright sun, seeing the impossible.....look possible.
Now, the real work begins. Taking care of myself...which means other people and other things will also be taken care of in the process. How could I have been there for others, when I really wasn't taking care of myself?
There has been one person who truly understood what I was going through, and has always been there for me. My husband. No one else understood, even when I told them the truth......
So, any way....this got longer than I had planned. (Sorry!)
Time to get back on track!
Time to see a doctor about the tingling and numbness...just to get the speech that I drink too much caffeine and need to lose weight. LOL I know it's coming.
I haven't given up the soda or coffee. That has to change though. No promises, but its a serious goal.
Time to get organized around here.
Structure is in our future. That's not a bad word! We could really get back to some structure and definitely a lot of organizing around here.....I see chore charts, menu plans, DEEP, DEEP cleaning and painting (wall paper HAS to come down), and going back to the CM method of homeschooling.
I want to be here for my kids many more years....so my health has to come first. Weight loss...better eating and some exercise.
Of course, that isn't all. My future posts will reflect what's going on. ;-)